This Quantum Life

Resistance is Futile

As I watch wind-driven snow billowing up into phantasms of white, enigmatic shapes, I sit considering my situation. Two weeks ago I made a life-shaking decision to return to the town of my birth. I was stalled out and rumaging around in a life I was not enjoying, except for the few minutes of respite as I lay in bed at night. So, it was time for a change!

I began an online fund-raising campaign to pay rent on house in Kansas, procure a vehicle that would (probably) make the trip, and funds to setup housekeeping, since I had no furniture, no kitchen equipment, or bed. Several folks pitched in, and with substantial help from a couple of family members, I was on my way.

This entire undertaking has moved along as if independent of my particular input, and only when I resisted a certain "way" it was unfolding did problems and apparent obstacles suddenly appear. I resisted losing my vehicle, and shortly it was gone; I resisted traveling "in the dead of winter", and shortly, there was 6 inches of snowfall; I resisted my online business tanking, and shortly, sales were non-existant. This led to deep doubts, anxieties and thousands of tiny uncertainties.

I began to come around to just letting go of control. Resistance, after all, is simply a control play. The universe "knows" what I have intended, and has set about delivering my desire. Who the hell am I to now question HOW it comes into physical reality? Not my monkeys, not my circus.

I guess the hard part is making the tiny, day-to-day choices that seem to ride up on me for approval or disapproval, and since they all have to do with "how" it's coming about, I wonder if my choices are inadvertantly delaying the outcome, or outright blocking it. This is despite going with what feels like my "gut", and despite outright muscle-testing, and heavy or light evaluations. The nagging monkey-mind concerns and niggling worries were taking the fun and adventure out of the adventure!

Every signpost and signal seems to be indicating "smooth sailing", and yet here I sit with a tight gut, fearing the worst, and just wishing it was over. Geez. Has life really beaten me down so much that I can't enjoy any part of realizing my desires and dreams? Maybe.

That iconic speech by John Goodman in "The Gambler" movie, where he lectures a gambling novice, "Do you have a problem, like some little girl? Waa-waa-waa! Or are you f'd-up temporarily because your temporily f'n stupid?" -- keeps playing in my head. It makes me laugh, yet at the same time it makes me feel like I've just leaped off a cliff and all the doubts and worries are suddenly cancelled by the reality of what I have just chosen. It's on, and it's gonna happen whether or not you're on board, buddy!

So, I believe there is a chance for some equanimity here. There is comfort in the truth that all is truly well, and it's okay to have what I desire. Resisting the hows and how-comes, is a hollow, futile exercise in personal control dramas. The key is to relax and enjoy the ride.

The quantum particles and waves have been set in motion and are merrily going about their duties, delivering the very thing I originally thought was such a great idea. Well, it IS a great idea, dammit! That's my reality, and I'm stickin' to it!

To your quantum health,

Boyd Martin
pureenergyrx.com

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Not Having It

For those of you dabbling in the Art of Manifesting, or those of you who are deeply committed to a life of light and energy as the primary drivers of your experience, I'd like to address the illusion of what I call "time drag". Time drag is the apparent passage of time from the moment we imagine the fulfillment of a desire and the "realization" of it. It is, probably, the most vexing, and most misunderstood of physical phenomenon for the would-be creator.

I call this time drag effect an illusion because time itself is a construct of the mind. We agree to this linear cause-and-effect passage of events as a tool to observe our creations, and to make cultural sense of our place in the world. Both of these constructs must be completely arbitrary, because each of us come from different cultural/social beginnings, and the scientific fact that time itself is a construct of the mind. Yet, we are habituated to a certain "rate", or "the way that things get done", or a narrow band of possible ways things come into being. These extremely limiting beliefs create the time between our desires and the actualization of them.

It's been shown in those pesky quantum physics experiments that quantum particles can "jump" into the future, or the past, and can co-exist in both, as well as exist in multiple points in space simultaneously. This all leads physicists to conclude that "linear time" does not exist, and that in reality, on a cosmic scale, everything is happening at once.

I bring this up in the way of de-constructing our expectations of how our desires must come into being. In the ancient shamanic tradition, it is taboo to assign any causative events to a desire. In other words, once you've chosen an outcome or imagined a desire fulfilled, you must not try to figure out how to make it happen. It is the rawest of conundrums in the manifestation game. The point is, once you've chosen a desired outcome, it is the universe's job to bring about its fruition. Now, 99% of what we are experiencing in the manifested world is a subconscious creation. We are making the sun shine, we are rotating the planet, we are circling the galactic center--all subconsciously--so we are not "figuring out" how to do these things. We are doing them automatically as an integral part of living in this dimension. This subconscious creating we're doing is "The Other"--our partner in conscious creating.

If we get all tangled up in the "how" and "where" and "when", we short-circuit the subconscious creator by creating a microscopically narrow set of possibilities from which it can create. This is what I call "time pollution". We feel like after sitting with our desires unfilled, the world seems to remain stationary, as we twiddle our thumbs, continually looking at the clock.

What has happened is that our attention jumped out of the imagination--the source of conscious creation--and got stuck on the outward manifested effects that are not our desired outcome. In other words, we hang up on the "not having it", when we ought to be focussed intently on the direct having of it within the imagination. The subconscious Other is already clothing our imaginal desires in physical reality, as long as we let it do its job.

So what to do when we catch ourselves "figuring out" how to "make happen" these desires of ours? Stop, engage the imagination, and re-enter the Land of Desires Fulfilled with all our senses. This keeps the short-circuiting of The Other from happening so much, and gives us a nice, energetic retreat from which to observe the unfoldment of what we are imagining. We perceive and live in the fulfillment of our desires. That's our job. Just that. Yes, go about your daily activities in the manifested world, but stay in the Land of Creation that is the imagination. You may find there are tasks that come up in the manifestd world that do relate directly to the appearance of our desires fulfilled. Rejoice! Things are getting there. (PODCAST: Neville on Imagination as Creator)

The great dynamo of our dualistic universe is the nothing-to-something engine. This engine has infinite power, and can create anything we can imagine and beyond. It is ONLY our limiting beliefs about the "outside world", and narrow opinions of what is possible in that world that prevents the immediate manifestation of our choices. We directly engage this dynamo in the imagination as we see, hear, smell, and feel our desires fulfilled.

To your quantum health,

Boyd Martin
pureenergyrx.com

This Quantum Life

The Magic of Repetition

In my mind, the most NOT talked about thing about actualizing, manifesting or any form of creative alchemy is repetition. It's kind of magic's dirty little secret.

We forget sometimes that in the creation of our lives, what is repeated the most is most visible. We are all mighty creators, but by constant repetition of our limitations, constant repetition of our frailties, and constant repetition of limiting beliefs, we act and feel far from the mighty creators we started out as.

The subconscious is accessed and programmed by repetition. If we aren't consciously programming our subconscious, then the rest of our experience will program it for us, and because conditions in our life came about through repetition of viewpoints, conclusions, choices and judgements, we are going to be experiencing pretty much the same thing from day to day.

The subconscious can be visualized as a vast array of off/on switches, and these off/on switches are in circuit with the DNA in our genes. The important thing to know is that these switches require the repetition of an exact "command" in order to be switched on or off. A command is formed by our CHOICE. If we CHOOSE to accept or create a certain point of view, or feeling, for example, "I'm just not good enough to get what I desire", this conclusion becomes active.

When this happens, the mind begins to look for corroborating evidence of its truth. When the evidence is found (as it invariably is), this acts as an amplifier for that initial choice of "I'm just not good enough to get what I desire". Now, repeat this enough times, and the subconscious adds this switch to its vast array, and soon the experience of "not being good enough" goes on automatic, adding yet another layer to the subconscious programming.

The conscious mind now begins to observe all sorts of ways this "I'm not good enough" command is true in life, and without any countering commands, it just keeps getting re-enforced and soon, our life experience is in a miserable, downward spiral.

That's why when we CHOOSE to change our life into something exciting and worth living, all the reasons why that can't happen immediately show up. This is the "switch" that we had previously carefully and skillfully installed! Now it becomes a matter of repeating the choice--over and over--until the subconscious program is overwritten--that switch is turned off, and a new switch is turned on: "My life is exciting and worth living."

The complicating factor is ego. Our sense of self has a dark side that basically campaigns for the subconscious. Whatever the dominant program is that is running in the subconscious, the ego owns it, makes it personal, and defends it. That's why after we've made the CHOiCE to change, experiences will come up that seem to invalidate that choice, and we take it personally. That's the dark ego talking. The trick is to get the ego on your side. Get it to be a cheerleader for your positive choices.

We can do that by simply noticing that the sheer act of making the choice to change caused life experiences of the opposite. If we frame those negative experiences as progress, and are, as a result, encouraged, the ego will soon jump on board and start telling you how great it's all going!

I've been studying with a powerful shaman lately, and she keeps repeating, "Why would you continue to choose to feel BAD about your circumstances after you have already CHOSEN the circumstances you desire?" Good point. And it has everything to do with training the conscious mind to train the subconscious mind toward what we truly desire.

So it all boils down to CHOICE and REPETITION, folks. Pretty damn simple, actually. Although some would argue simple is not easy, and this is true...at first. The hard part is feeling those old feelings that jump up to try to re-enforce the program you are choosing to change, and the ego is taking it personally (before it switches over to your side). At a certain point, after much repetition, these feelings and experiences fade away, and are replaced by the joy and ease you are choosing. It's a process. Enjoy it, and the magic that is sure to follow!

To your quantum health,

Boyd Martin
pureenergyrx.com